Heal me Today

How do you know that a toxic person no longer has power over your emotions? How do you know you’ve finally left it behind?

My highlight of the day was discovering tiny bean sprouts in my raised garden bed. 🙈

Oh yes—simple, ordinary, and for some people perhaps even silly moments have become my happiest ones.

When I first built those garden beds, I was honestly terrified that I was doing everything wrong. After following all the instructions, I thought, “Okay, I managed to build them… but what if nothing grows? What if I simply can’t do this? What if I have some kind of bad aura for plants?”

Do you remember me mentioning that in our apartment I couldn’t keep any plants alive? I even managed to kill an ivy plant, which is supposedly one of the easiest plants to grow. That’s exactly why I was worried.

As it turns out, those fears were completely unnecessary.

My garden beds are alive. They are growing, blooming, and thriving. The peas already have pods, we’ve been snacking on fresh strawberries for weeks, my hydrangea has finally started flowering, the mint and lemon balm are happily living their best lives in their pots, and the young trees keep sending out new shoots.

Even the plants inside the house are flourishing.

And now I know that perhaps the problem was never me.

Maybe it had more to do with the environment I was living in and the relationship that slowly drained the life out of me.

Today, I find joy in the smallest things. Actually, joy isn’t even the right word—I’m genuinely excited. A few tiny bean sprouts can make my entire day.

And I think this is one of the most important parts of healing after a breakup: learning to notice the small joys again. Finding things that bring life back into your world. Discovering moments that quietly fill the spaces that once felt empty.

Because sometimes what we are really growing is not a garden.

Sometimes we are growing a new life.

And with it, a new kind of happiness. 🌱✨