Heal me Today

So that I don’t write only about heavy and painful things — believe me, beautiful things are happening in my life too.

Right now, I am truly learning to enjoy my own company. That doesn’t mean I don’t miss people. I do. I miss deep conversations. I miss physical closeness — a hug, a kiss — but most of all, I miss that quiet feeling of support.

And yet… it’s not something that brings me to my knees.

I am genuinely okay.

Being alone is not sad. In fact, it feels surprisingly peaceful. There is something incredibly grounding about standing on your own two feet and realizing you are enough company for yourself.

I think it will take some time before I let someone new truly close to me. And that’s okay. There is no rush. Healing has its own rhythm.

But let me come back to the positives.

My home is becoming my oasis. And lately, I’ve started working on it more intentionally. I’m currently planning how to design my living room so that it finally reflects me — my personality, my taste, my energy. I have a few ideas already, and I’m honestly excited to bring them to life.

Spring is knocking on the door, which means garden season is coming. First on the list: the lawn. And then, step by step, I’ll move forward. I can already feel that gardening might become one of my favorite hobbies. There’s something deeply symbolic about nurturing your own space — shaping it, caring for it, watching it grow. I plan to improve every little corner of my home, slowly but intentionally.

And there’s more.

I’ve started running again.

Finally.

For now, I’m using the gym at work because it’s still too cold outside, and the only time I can run is after sunset — and honestly, I’m not brave enough to run alone in the dark. So treadmill it is. What matters is that I started.

I’ve stepped into positive, beautiful activities.

Not because I have to.

But because I can.

And most importantly — because I want to.

What about you?

What are you doing these days that brings you joy?

I would love to hear.