Heal me Today

I’ve noticed that I often have days when I overeat. At first, I didn’t understand why, but lately, I’m slowly uncovering truths about myself, my life, and what it all means—for me.

I don’t think there’s one universal answer to the question of life’s meaning. Each of us has our own, and that’s okay. There’s no rule that says one purpose fits all.

Strangely, I’ve started to feel a quiet sense of fulfillment. Therapy has helped with this. Talking with my therapist each week brings so much clarity. Like today—
someone once said that people don’t change, but that’s simply not true. People do change, especially as they grow. We evolve internally, our values shift, our perspectives expand, and much of that is shaped by our experiences.

Take my relationship, for example. My husband and I have been together for 20 years. That’s not a small thing. But who we are now is not who we were back then. We’ve both matured into entirely different people. That realization has inspired me to try to get to know him again. To understand him as he is now, just as I’m learning who I’ve become.

It’s not easy, but it gives me hope. Hope that I can stay true to myself, and also find space for love, growth, and connection. Yes, I’m scared of what I might discover—or of the choices I may eventually have to make. But at the same time, I’m filled with curiosity, determination, and the desire to fall in love again—with life, with him, with myself.

Life is one big mystery. And if we choose not to stay blind to our inner world or the world around us, we can experience so many beautiful things. Yes, there are hard moments too, but right now I’m choosing to focus on the beauty. Because I really do have so much of it in my life. 🌸