Heal me Today

Life is like a merry-go-round — one day you’re up, the next you’re down. Right now, my relationship feels a lot like that, except we seem to be on the downward swing more often than the upward one. Still, I’m grateful — especially for the decision I made to start therapy.

I now have a therapist I talk to every week, and I genuinely look forward to every session. It brings me peace to talk openly about what’s bothering me, what’s making me happy, or simply what I’m trying to understand.

This stage in my relationship isn’t easy. But I’m not giving up — I’m just letting go a little. I want to see where things naturally go. I believe we’ve both grown and changed a lot over time, and now we’re faced with the challenge of learning how to live alongside our newer selves.

That doesn’t happen overnight. It takes effort to accept new opinions, values, and emotional reactions — not only from each other but from ourselves. Sometimes, we hit a wall, but we look for a window, a door, or even a crack to get through it together.

This journey isn’t always pleasant. I’m very sensitive — I cry often, and that’s hard for the other side to bear. We’re stuck in this loop of frustration — with ourselves, and with each other. But still, we don’t give up.

There’s always something between us that brings comfort, that reminds us of who we are at our best. Relationships aren’t only made of good days. They include the fights, the silences, the confusion. And yes, they include all the effort.

Sometimes love alone isn’t enough. Sometimes, you just need to grit your teeth and stay present for the other person — even when it’s hard. And when the storm passes, you’ll know what direction to take. Whether it’s staying — because things can be repaired — or leaving — because you’ve done everything you could — both choices can be right.

Nothing is ever so bad it can’t get worse, but if I want to stay hopeful, I’ll say: nothing is ever so bad that it can’t get better.