Heal me Today

Lately, I’ve been feeling content—maybe even peaceful. And when we feel at peace, we often stop paying attention to the deeper things around us. We believe things are fine and avoid confronting the important stuff, telling ourselves that all is well. That’s what I did. I let myself believe it was all okay. And for a while, it really felt like it was.

But all it took was one moment. One moment to shatter the calm I worked so hard to build. The peace I needed so badly disappeared in an instant.

That moment came from someone I should be able to trust completely. Someone who should be my support, my anchor. And yet—again—they hurt me. Not by accident, but by choice. A choice that put themselves first, even knowing it would wound me.

I’m tired. Tired of being disappointed. But I’m not giving up.

This pain is making me stronger. It’s showing me what I need and what I will no longer accept. I’m ready to start creating a safe space around me—filled only with people who want the best for me, people I can trust, and who trust me in return.

I still love my husband, despite everything happening between us. I won’t walk away easily just because things are hard. I don’t believe leaving is always the answer. But I also know that resisting change doesn’t help either. If nothing shifts, everything gets worse. So yes—change is coming. And when I’m sure it’s the right step, I’ll take it proudly.

But not today.

Today, I’m spending a beautiful day with my daughter—the truest love of my life. How lucky are we as mothers to have experienced this kind of love? She fills me with light and joy. This is the kind of presence I need every single day. She is my strength. My reminder that love, when pure, is everything.